It's been a fun week of enjoying myself. Yesterday I went to see Magic Mike XXL with a friend. As I expected, it was a poignant character-driven story with historical and literary allusions... nah, mostly hot guys dancing around in various states of undress. It was still a lot of fun and I enjoyed it. And it had Twitch from So You Think You Can Dance. Me and one other girl in the theatre did a round of mini-applause when he showed up. It was a bonding moment.
I've resisted the urge to do something practical and necessary with my free time and I'm glad I did. I think I needed a vacation from responsibility and practicality as much as anything else.
I am looking forward to seeing the kids again. I miss them a lot. Life isn't the same without singing "Compass" and the "Soft Kitty Song" every night. I hope they've had fun with their grandparents. Certainly the weather has been beautiful so they've probably been doing lots of swimming and boating on the lake.
I don't miss cleaning up toileting accidents or having to do the "it's too quiet" dash to see what's being destroyed. But I miss Nathan's odd and funny commentary on life and I even miss Alex calling out the bus ID numbers in front of our house. I miss seeing their smiles and hearing them laugh. I don't miss hearing them fight or aggressively negotiate for screentime. I don't miss having tons of Lego scattered underfoot or needing to keep the bedroom doors locked. I do miss hearing them breathe and move around at night. The house is too quiet with them gone and while I've enjoyed it, I'm ready to go back to how things were. It's how they should be.